The wolves

My name is Cira. Last night I landed in LAX after what some would describe as running away from my life to start a new one. But for those of you who want my side of the story, here goes..  Almost a year, and I'm not even being dramatic. My ex left me a day before Valentines Day, 3 days before our one year anniversary.. The asshole then started a very long and painful on angain off again process. Did I mention it was the start of senior year? I am not proud of how I handled the situation but to me he was my life source, the love of my life, my soulmate.. Damn that year I cried my eyes out, fell into a deep depression, tried killing myself, all while having to watch him and his new girlfriend every time i turned around at school. I totally failled my entire math class. Lost my friends and because I'm an introvert couldn't make any new ones.  What broke me further was the fact that he cut my contact with his grandparents, who took me into their house and gave me a second home. My brother remained his best friend and I slowly started faiding away.  School was the worst because everybody knew what had happened and they talked about it when they thought I wasn't listening, they started when I wasn't looking... But what nobody knew was just how serious our relationship was, I mean the s*x was great and all but it was more than that. He promised me forever and I believed him. I loved him. s**t, I still love him even after 3 years of waiting for him to realize that he made a mistake and wishing every day for him to come back to me. And he did from time to time, sadly only when he was feeling particularly horny and wanted a good f**k. After he would say he still loves me amd then just as quickly forget me again.  Now I know this sounds pathetic. But that brings us to now. When he celebrated his 3 year anniversary with her, aka b***h, I finally decided that I deserved better. So I told my parents that I needed to do something for me. I bought my plane ticket and left beforee I could change my mind. Now in a new country surrounded by thousands of unknown people I start walking to the coffee shop across from my hotel. Figure I should probably look for a job before I am stuck out on the streets.