STALKED

CHAPTER 1 Iain There she is, the woman I have been in love with for a year. Helmina is beautiful, she is the perfect woman for me and I will have her one day soon. In the last year I have learned everything I can about my Helmina, everything from her favorite color to her clothing size, where she lives, what classes she takes where she works, and how she spends her time. Today I saw her on her way to her job at the campus library, she is working the closing shift tonight. I should be there with her but tonight I need to get my supply of ritalin for the beginning of the semester or I will never be able to keep up with my classes. “Yeah, I’ll be there in 10. You got the right amount this time right?” I can’t believe I even have to ask this question but last time I met with this dealer he shorted me and I’ll be damned if I let him do it again. “I got the count right this time man. I’m not a f*****g i***t!” Says the dealer who can’t count to save his life. “You better have the count right or I will beat the s**t out of you this time!” “Yeah, yeah i got it man. Just get your ass over here so we can get this s**t done.” This time we are meeting in the campus botanical gardens, every time we meet we meet in a different spot. My purchases are getting more frequent and I'm needing more and more pills just to keep me awake and focused soon I will need something stronger, but I haven’t found a seller yet. 1 After the deal was done and my stash was safely hidden I found my way back to the Tomas Rivera Library to walk the love of my life back to her campus housing. I need to make sure she is safe and I need to see her smile at me again. As Helmina locks up the library for the night I wait across the parking lot and wait for her. Helmina is on the phone again tonight I wonder if she is talking to Layla or if it is that damn Raul. Raul is tricking her into being with him, he is pretending to be gay just to get close to my Helmina, and she is falling for it. This relationship between Raul and Helmina will end and I will make sure of it. SHE WILL BE MINE! As Helmina slowly makes her way home while talking on the phone I follow her from the opposite side of the street. I watched Helmina close the door to her dorm and then make my way back to my dorm. On my way home I check my classes and I can’t believe it they approved the one class I wanted to take. The creative writing class Helmina is taking this year is the only class that I could even try to talk my way into seeing as I am a year a head of her and my major is in chemistry. I will be able to see her more often and I know she will be happy to see me like she is every time she sees me. Just a few more days until the semester starts and rumor has it that Helmina will be at Alpha house for the party tomorrow night. I have watched her at the other parties she has gone to she loves me enough that she never leaves with other men even though they try to get her. Everytime she goes out she always puts extra effort into her appearance even though she never needs to, she is beauty personified. I wonder what she will wear tomorrow night, will it be that short tight red dress that enhances her legs and curves, or will it be her favorite pale green sun dress that matches her eyes ? Will she wear her favorite black strappy 2 stiletto heels or her her favorite balet flats? As I walk into my apartment I realize I need a fix. The shaking is worse than I realized because as I grab the bottle and attempt to pour out a few pills a hard tremor hits and I end up dumping half the bottle out. “Damn it! This s**t takes too long to kick in.” I pop three pills in my mouth and try to think about where I can score something stronger next time. While I wait for the pills to kick in I flop on my bed and daydream about tomorrow night. After about 30 mins I am feeling better, I push my hair out of my face, grab my phone and do another check on all of Helminas social media platforms. Looking through her ** it looks like she had a good day, there are several new pictures that were posted today and in all of them Helmina was smiling for me. While looking through all the new pictures that were posted I cannot help but reminisce about the very first time I saw her. Last semester I was walking to class, and of coarse I was late, and I just happened to look into one of the class rooms on the way and there she was. I knew she was mine in that moment. Satisfied that Helmina had a good day I pick up my sketchbook, go to a clean page, and start a new sketch. This new sketch is much like the others, they are all of Helmina, the only person who understands me and is always there for me. In this sketch she is smiling at me again, she is happy to be home with me after a day of work. We talk about what she did today and about all the people she helped. Helmina tells me that she feels like everytime she helps a student find what they need it’s like she is helping them achieve their dreams. I draw he in her favorite pale green sundress that matches her eyes so well. By the time I 3 am done putting the final touches on this sketch its well into late morning the following day. It is so late in fact that I need another dose to keep me going. I need to be coherent for the party tonight, I have to be there. So I take more pills at this rate I will need to do another buy before the end of the week. Looking at the clock I realize how late it really is and sware out loud. “f**k! I’m late, she is already at work.” Not bothering to change, like most days lately, I grab my backpack and run out the door. Running for the library I look back and wonder when the last time I showered and changed was and I cannot remember. I wonder if it has been more than three days and then wonder if I just cannot remember bathing or changing. Surely I have at least changed my clothes recently. Maybe the pills are messing with my mind because of how many I need to take, thats it. I can’t remember the small things because of how many pills I need to take to get an effect. As I reach the library I have come to the conclusion that I absolutely need to find something stronger than those weak ass pills. Pulling open the door I am greeted by the sweet smell of vanilla and honey, the smell of my Helmina. Today she is dressed in a loose fitting red button down, black skinny jeans, and a pair of red and black ballet flats. She is beautiful today like every other day I have seen her. When I walk past the desk where she is perched she is smiling and I cannot help but feel like I was the one who put that smile on her face. I head to an individual study area where I have a direct view of her and plop my bag on the table. Pulling my phone out of my pocket I try to think of who might have what I need, and 4 shoot a text off to Wen. Wen is not close by but he should have associates here since he was originally from L.A. “Hey Wen, I need something stronger than those weak ass ritalin. You got any local connections?” While I wait for a response I notice Helmina is no longer at her desk and decide to go look for her. Helmina is wandering through the stacks putting books back where they belong and I cannot help but admire her beauty. Making my way back to my study area I grab a chemistry book I have been meaning to look at. I figure if I cannot buy what I need I can make it myself. Opening the book I start my search for what I will need in order to make the purest s**t I can. My phone vibrates with a text message from Wen. “Man your a chemistry major can’t you make your own s**t?” Shaking my head out of frustration I respond, “if I knew what the hell I was doing I wouldn’t be asking you for a hookup!” Wen replies back with “Whatever, what do you want?” “Can you hook me up with crystal?” Going back to my book I come to the disappointing conclusion that I will not be able to find what I am looking for in a college library. I never wanted to turn to the internet but it seems like that is where I will need to go. After putting the book back I realize Helminas shift for the day is over and it is time for me to walk her home. I do this for her every day, even if I am not able to walk by her side as of yet. Grabbing my bag I head out the door and follow her from across the street like always. While walking I get another text from Wen “meet my guy tomorrow at 7pm in the community gardens. Him and crystal will take a walk with you.” “Ok got it, thanks Wen.” Helmina has made her way into her house safely so I head off campus to go see my parents, I need more cash and mom will give me whatever I want.